"Me Time"

When I read "Iron on reverse" on even the tiniest of baby clothes, I think, "You've got to be kidding me!"  It is laughable to think that any new mom would have time to iron a onesie.  And if she did have time, it's even more of a stretch of the imagination to believe that all of the work put into ironing the tiny sleeves and around the mini snaps would be appreciated by the baby who would probably spit-up (or worse) all over the garment within seconds of having it lovingly put on in the wee hours of the morning.

So although I am not ironing Jackson's clothes, I am devoting every minute of the day to all of his other needs.  (He is sleeping right now in his swing dreaming along to classical music, so obviously some of the minutes of the day, I have a break.)  This brings me to the title for this week:  "Me Time."

As a mom, the only 'me time' that I have is spent completing the basic essentials to be accepted into modern-day society--such as combing my hair and bathing.  One day, I had time to put my hair into a 'neat' ponytail and managed to put on a fresh tee-shirt and I felt like I could face the world once again.  Guilt sets in when I do anything that isn't for Jackson.  Two Fridays ago, I went to a group at a garden centre for moms to 'chat'.  This lasted two hours and all of the babies had to sit on their mothers' knees while the women all compared their babies' weights, lengths, and sleeping patterns.  The guilt hit hard as we were leaving and I realised that Jackson probably didn't get anything out of that experience and I was selfish for going.

After that day, I made sure that every minute is 'all about Jackson' and giving him as many new adventures with the world around him as he can take in without being too overwhelmed.  Usually our day consists of singing, dancing, reading, time in the Fisher Price play gym and jumperoo, looking at the mobile, talking back and forth, and then of course the diaper changes and clothing adjustments that occur throughout the day.  While Jackson is napping, I try to get at least one thing done that benefits the family as a whole such as laundry or cleaning.  Other than studying to take my driving test, I try not to do anything that would fit into the 'me time' category.

I am so proud to be Jackson's mom and I brag about him at every opportunity I get with anyone I meet.  I am also proud to give him the best of everything I have.  I am very content to put aside my needs to see Jackson learning and growing every day and being the happiest little baby boy anyone could hope for.

If you see Sammie Miles Davis, Jr. and Bella, give them my love.