And I don't mean maybe! The first day in the hospital, I had to keep looking at Jackson because every time I looked, I saw something new. After a day of trying to memorise this new face, I was worried because I wasn't confident that in a room full of babies, I would be able to pick out which one was mine. I told this to one of the midwives and she said that Jackson would be able to identify me by smell alone.
Luckily, we didn't have to rely on his super sense of smell since he never left my side at the hospital. Also, with the little sleep that I get, I'm glad to say that I can already see Jackson in my dreams so I'm pretty sure I could take on the "room full of babies challenge" now.
On Wednesday, Jackson will be one month old already! The first month has gone by quickly, but I try to do as many activities as I can and hold Jackson as much as I can every day to make the days go as slowly as possible. His new developments include cooing and babbling, reaching for his toys that hang above his head, and sleeping for longer stretches of time like he did the first week.
My friend asked me this week what I enjoyed the most about being Jackson's mom: I love the fact that he calms down when I hold him merely because I'm his mom and he feels safe and secure. Whenever I baby-sat little ones in Ohio and they were upset, sometimes nothing I did could settle them down until they saw their moms again. It feels good to have a little one of my own now who fully depends on me and knows that I'm always here for whatever he needs.
If you see Sammie Miles Davis, Jr. and Bella, give them my love.
